Arkadi and Boris Strugatski. Hard to be a god
© Copyright Arcady and Boris Strugatsky
© Copyright Translated by Wendayne Ackerman, 1973
© Copyright DAW Books, INC.
EPILOGUE
"And then?" asked Anka.
Pashka lowered his eyes, slapped his knee several times with the flat
of his palm, bent down and picked a wild strawberry growing on the ground
near his feet. Anka waited.
"Then . . .," he murmured. "Actually, nobody knows for sure what
happened then, Anka. He had left his transmitter at home, and after the
house had burnt to the ground, they understood at Controls that things were
not going well, and they immediately sent a special emergency squad to
Arkanar. They released a considerable amount of sleeping gas over the city,
to cover all eventualities. At first they looked at the house. But since it
was totally burnt to the ground, they were confused, not knowing where to
look for him. But then they saw--"
He became embarrassed and hesitated for a moment
"Well, they saw the traces he had left behind."
Pashka fell silent again and started popping one strawberry after the
other into his mouth.
"And?" said Anka softly.
"They came to the palace . . . That's where they found him."
"How?"
"Well ... he was sleeping. And all the others . , . around him . . .
were also lying on the ground. Some were asleep and others . . . well . . .
They also found Don Reba . . ." Pashka quickly glanced at Anka, then swiftly
lowered his eyes again. "They took him, that is, they took Anton and brought
him back to the station at the base . . . You see, Anka, he doesn't tell us
about anything. And in general he talks very little now."
Anka sat bolt upright, very pale, and looked over Pashka's head toward
the little meadow in front of the cabin in the woods. The fir trees rustled
their needles as they swayed in the breeze; a pair of fat white clouds
slowly drifted through the blue sky.
"And what was the matter with the girl?" she asked.
"I don't know," Pashka said firmly.
"Listen, Pashka," said Anka, "maybe I shouldn't have come here at all."
"Will you stop that nonsense! Of course he will be happy to see you..."
"And I have the feeling he is hiding somewhere here in the bushes,
watching us, and waiting for me to leave."
Pashka laughed.
"No, no," he said. "Anton's not hiding in the bushes, you can believe
me. He hasn't got the faintest idea that you're here. He's gone off fishing
somewhere, as usual."
"And how does he behave toward you?"
"So-so. We get along all right. But didn't you want something else?..."
They were both silent for a while.
"Anka," said Pashka. "Do you remember the anisotropic road?"
Anka frowned.
"What kind of a road?"
"The anisotropic road. With the one-way street sign. Don't you
remember? We were there, the three of us ..."
"Oh, yes. Now I remember. Anton used that word."
"Yes, and then he entered the one-way road the wrong way and walked its
whole length; and when he returned he said he'd found a collapsed bridge and
the skeleton of a German chained to a machine gun."
"I don't remember that part," said Anka. "What about it?"
"Nowadays I often think back to that road," said Pashka. "Maybe there's
some connection somewhere ... the road was anisotropic--just as history is.
There is no way back. And he went right ahead anyway. And met up with a
chained skeleton."
"I don't follow you. What do you mean by the chained skeleton?"
"I don't know," admitted Pashka. "It's just an impression I have."
Anka said:
"See to it that he doesn't brood too much! Try to keep him involved in
discussions about anything at all. Make small talk with him. Try to take his
mind off his worries."
Pashka sighed deeply.
"Oh, I know ... I've tried all of that. But what good does all my small
talk do him? He listens for a little while, smiles and says: 'Pashka, why
don't you sit here? I'm going for a walk.' And then he goes off. And there I
sit ... In the beginning I used to follow him secretly; but now I only sit
here waiting for him to come back. Maybe you could--"
All of a sudden Anka got to her feet. Pashka stood up too and looked
around. Anka followed with bated breath as Anton emerged from a clearing in
the woods and came walking toward them--very tall, broad-shouldered, his
face pale. He seemed completely unchanged; he had always had a serious
expression on his face.
She walked to meet him.
"Anka," he said tenderly. "Anka, my little friend ..."
He held his long arms out to her. Timidly she leaned forward, then
quickly jumped back a step. On his fingers . . .
But it was not blood, only the stain of strawberries.